I'm in a very strange place right now. Going to the memorial of a friend your age will do that to you, I suppose. It really puts things in perspective.
To be honest with you, I'm really not sure what to say at this point. I'm at a loss. As such, I'll go back to writing and leave you with a great quote. For now, though, I'll stay positive that next week will bring happier tidings.
"The truth is I love the insecurity part of it, it keeps me on my toes. I think you become bland and predictable without the stress and angst. There's a certain lethargy that sets in." - Liam Neeson
So scriptwriting is starting to catch-on with me. On top of the TV pilot, I started writing a feature film, too. I was having writers block on both, but then remembered what a very talented and successful playwright/scriptwriter friend told me about such a situation: If you get stuck, start at the end. BOOM. Problem solved.
This whole "being discovered" thing is nonsense. As entertainers, not just in New York but everywhere, we have to wear so many different hats to build careers for ourselves. Yes, I am an actor. Yes, I also own a film festival. Yes, I also produce, and yes, now I write. All help my acting, especially the writing and producing. If your "perfect role" hasn't come around yet, write it yourself. Now to find the right team to shoot it...
On another positive note, Tim has finally started acting again! It is good to see, because he is so clearly happy getting back to it. It is so easy to get caught-up in the humdrum hamster wheel of everyday life ("Gotta pay the bills. Gotta eat. Gotta get ahead...") that we can easily lose track of our dreams, our meaning. I'm so glad to see him doing what he came here to do.
"I don't think anybody can be told how to act. I think you can give advice. But you have to find your own way through it." - Dame Judi Dench
I know it's 12:07AM, which means it's technically Monday morning, but I haven't gone to sleep yet, so I say it still counts as a Sunday post. Good enough? Good enough.
I'll keep my notes of the week short: Went to see a good friend do a reading, caught-up with some old friends, got some fantastic news from another friend, and am getting back in the swing of things after the Holiday break. That final note is good, of course, because I was starting to go a bit stir-crazy, feeling like I was sitting on my hands while waiting for the Entertainment community in general to go back to work. Glad to be back.
Well, I didn't entirely just sit on my hands. I decided to start writing. Nothing serious yet, but it's a start. I'm taking the advice of some great people I've had the opportunity to speak to or to read the writings of: Rather than waiting around to be booked in films, TV shows, and plays, write something for yourself with a role that perfect for you and shoot it/produce it on your own.
"I was in a taxi the other night, and we started talking about life and the taxi driver goes, "Chaos and creativity go together. If you lose one per cent of your chaos, you lose your creativity." I said that's the most brilliant thing I've heard. I needed to hear that years ago." - Woody Harrelson
Ok, this will be the third time I've tried to update my blog. The first time, I accidentally turned my computer off when I finished my post but hadn't published it yet (damn you, random power key close to the delete key on my keyboard). The second time, I finished my post and published it, but apparently it's floating in somewhere in oblivion right now, as it is not here on my site. That's it. You're getting a silly picture this week of a cat getting a haircut instead of my usual weekly update.
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